Like I said before. Music fuels my soul. One song that I have been listening to since I was knee high to a grass hopper is “Smiling Faces Sometimes” By the Undisputed Truth. I never knew what the that really meant until I became an adult. And Its crazy that back in the 60’s 70’s they were still dealing with things that we are dealing with now.
One of the most well known lyrics to that song is “Smiling faces show no traces of the evil that lurks within” And that is 100% truth. You can have so many “friends” but how do you know if that person is being 100 with you. My dad said a saying a long time ago and I swear. My pops is a G. “I would rather have 4 quarters than 100 pennies” and that is the realist s**t I have ever heard. I thought being popular and having so many friends is what my life needed to be about. And the older that I get the more I’m like “F**K THAT… AIN’T NO BODY GOT TIME FOR THAT” LOL. So many people who I thought were friends turned out to either be closet racist or was faker than Kim K’s butt.
I study people before I get to know them. So if we first met and you think I’m a b***h. That is the furthest from the truth. I’m analyzing you to see if you are even worth my time and energy because I got screwed over to many times that I just don’t want to invest in fakeness. My motto… Be real or Be gone. It is so crazy that while during this recovery journey people are so damn judge. Like forreal?? Why? Just because you didn’t have to struggle with any sort of addiction or mental health issues doesn’t mean you are better. Because guarantee you got more skeletons in your closet that I have.
People can be all buddy buddy with you to your face so they can have some clout but as soon as you leave their true colors show. If you are that unhappy with you own life that you have to play both sides, then maybe you need re-evaluate your own self worth and mind set.
I will say getting sober and getting the correct mental health humbled my ass REAL QUICK. And you know what. I’m glad. Because now I can actually take a step back and assess the situation for exactly what it is. I’m not saying this to say all people as are shady people. But guarantee there is more fake ones then real ones. And if you are blessed to have a real one. KEEP THEM!!! Because that type of friendship only happens once in a life time and losing that persons friendship is like loosing a part of your self. So what would you rather have guys? 4 quarters or 100 pennies?
“Smiling faces sometimes, They don’t tell the truth Smiling faces, smiling faces tell lies and I got proof (Beware) of the handshake that hides the snake (can you dig it, can you dig it?) I’m a-tellin’ you beware of the pat on the back It just might hold you back Jealousy, misery, envy, I tell you you can’t see behind Smiling faces, smiling faces, sometimes Hey, they don’t tell the truth Smiling faces, smiling faces tell lies and I got proof Hey, your enemy won’t do you no harm ’cause you’ll know where he’s comin’ from Don’t let the handshake and the smile fool ya Take my advice, I’m only tryin’ to school ya Smiling faces, smiling faces, sometimes They don’t tell the truth”